A Day in the Life With Borderline Personality Disorder

9:15 a.m.: I wake up feeling groggy and unmotivated. I force myself out of bed and start my morning routine, which includes listening to music and getting ready for the day.

10:00 a.m.: I start my online coursework. I find it difficult to stay focused and motivated, and I'm worried that I'm going to fail.

10:25 a.m.: I accidentally drop my pen on the floor. I notice that I've been picking at my skin. The wound is deep and bleeding.

11:20 a.m.: I start to feel overwhelmed by self-hatred and doubt. I feel like a loser and that I'm never going to succeed. I take some deep breaths and try to calm myself down.

12:00 p.m.: I have my online therapy session. I talk to my therapist about the pressure I'm feeling and my self-destructive behaviors. She helps me to understand the connection between my thoughts, feelings, and actions.

12:50 p.m.: I go on Twitter and start scrolling through my timeline. I see posts about people's relationships and start to feel jealous and lonely.

1:25 p.m.: I start working on my freelance writing and editing projects. I find it difficult to focus and concentrate. I also feel overwhelmed by the amount of work I have to do.

2:10 p.m.: I have a conversation with my friend about relationships. I share my fears about getting back into the dating game, and she listens and offers support.

2:22 p.m.: I still feel sad and lonely, so I do some breathwork to help me calm down.

2:29 p.m.: I feel a little better after doing the breathwork.

3:45 p.m.: I go to the gym for a leg day workout. I feel tired and sore after the workout, but I'm glad I went.

5:15 p.m.: I check my emails and see that an editor hasn't responded to my pitch. I start to feel anxious and worried that I did something wrong.

7:30 p.m.: My younger siblings come home from school and give me big hugs. I feel happy and loved.

8:15 p.m.: I start working on some of my other projects. I find it difficult to focus and concentrate, but I keep going.

9:20 p.m.: I get a text from my favorite person and feel happy and excited.

10:00 p.m.: I go to bed feeling tired and overwhelmed, but also grateful for the support of my friends and family.

As I drift off to sleep, I reflect on the day and know that tomorrow is a new day. I can start again and try to live my life in a more positive and healthy way.